Scared 😶(MK-35)

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1 Sept 2022                                                                                                                                    Thursday

Hey,

I'm very very very scared because I've a skit tomorrow on Teacher's Day. I'll have to sing, a little (goofy to me) dance, and I've joined the group a day ago. My friends were insisting meto join since a week but I didn't want to as I'm scared and have stagefright, a lot. And I know not doing it won't remove myfear..I have to face my fear, do my scary thing to overcome it...

But I'm also tensed about the costume. White shirt, I didn't have it so bought it but of men small size as no women shirts were there...and black jeans/pants, mumma had it but low waist! nooo, so uncomfortable it was but she gave me trousers which I'm not sure..

Could have bought new jeans but...I'm so...huh!

Now I'm double scared and can't stop thinking about what will happen...

I'm anxious, scared and feeling to cry...and never ever participate in a play..I mean the costume so worried about it and the whole show, I am so horrified😭😨😧


And everyone around is getting caught up in my nervousness's fire and I'm upsetting everyone I know...didn't even ask papa for tying up the tie as so stressed out didn't want to talk to anyone...He helped ofc.

I don't like talking about what I'm doing as I think it may JINX it and everything will be ruined 🙄

Now, I'm feeling I should have bought the black jeans...I'm so stupid😓

Just wish everything turns out to be good and I just get through this...


PACE

GOOD VIBES ONLY

EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT❤

I GOT THIS❤



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