Feeling low...(MK-32)

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 06-02-2022                                                                                                             Sunday


Photo credit: https://www.therandomvibez.com/feeling-down-quotes/

                                                                                                              

Not much of a good day!! Was feeling depressed and unnecessarily stressed out...I think because papa didn't talk to me for the whole day not even a bit, maybe, because yesterday, papa kinda exploded on Arjun on he wants to eat 'Pizza' and everything else that happened..(can't explain it, it's kinda complicated and more of personal..)

I just shouted on him when he just didn't stop scolding, shouting, abusing continuously and then he confronted me too and as always I walked out of the situation...of tiff...and went downstairs to be alone from the toxic environment at home..

Well! he brought stuff for making pizza and it got digested too...but the "after shocks" can be still felt by me...don't think Arjun or mumma can feel..(Well! he didn't talk to Arjun either, so..can't say anything in this situation) 

I'm very sad...It's for the first time in my life that papa didn't talk to me for the whole day...The reason can be that he was all day inn bed watching stuff on phone thus, didn't get chance to talk to us and he's not even have any anger towards me....

I or Arjun didn't even tried to talk to him in fear of getting scolded...

I'm devastated and broken seriously...all negative thoughts are coming and going and not stopping..

I'm crying on unnecessary reasons...and worrying abt other stuffs at the same time..

[GOD what u want from me..to die...or what...already have made my life hell by making me a human so complicated, an emotional jerk who cries on even a cartoon dying and cries when...whatever..

I don't know what u see in me that u put me in as much as possible difficult situations in life...but it's clear that I'm not gonna GIVE UP on ur foolish things...u better watch ur back because karma comes back...u not listening me will have complications to u too in the future]--->> 

(Kindly ignore it if feel offended by my words here as I was frustrated by all the stuff going in my life..)

(Now that I read it again just after alomost 5 minutes of writing it, it's sounds funny to me lol😂..but people I 'm serious, I'm done with all hurdles stopping me as now it's time for a jump to reach my destination, i.e., for me is, HAPPINESS AND POSITIVITY IN LIFE)


I have no idea what's gonna happen next but just hoping for the best!! 'cause as of few days, I had enough of this shit in my life...And hope everything comes back to normal and papa talks to me..

🙏🙏Jai Shree Radhekrishn 🙏🙏

PACE

GOD BLESS ALL LIVING BEINGS

GOOD VIBES ONLY

STAY SAFE AND HEALTH

LOVE URSELF

BELIEVE IN URSELF

DON'T THINK TOO MUCH ON THINGS WHICH HAVE NO VALUE IN UR LIFE

STOP OVERTHINKING

YOU CAN & YOU WILL!!


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